No really, let’s. Because I’ve learned this already, but I need all the reviewing I can get. This should take 6-8 hours.
First, watch these videos by one of my very favorite JS resources, Mattias P. Johansson. (And later on, find time to watch all his other videos – he’s highly entertaining, very human, and also super nice on social media.) No need to code along.
Then read chapters 1 and 2 of this book by another one of my favorites, Kyle Simpson. You may, like me, feel both dumber and smarter after reading Kyle’s material, but that’s okay – he knows his stuff and it’ll be worth it. I like to code along with the examples Kyle provides, but you don’t have to.
Now, code along with Mary while she makes a fun little game. She moves fast and you may have to stop the video every few minutes to catch up. After you’ve got all your code written and working, watch the video again while adding comments to your code about what every single thing is and what it’s doing. You’ll learn more in this second run-through than you could catch in the first, trust me.
There, now you’re an expert! Okay, not really – but you learned some stuff, right? BOOM.
I’d wanted to quit in week 3, too. Actually, if I don’t want to quit at least 3 times in a week, I consider it a good week. Before bootcamp started, I had naive worries about the schedule, my class, the location. I never suspected the real battle would be convincing myself to keep going back. Every. Single. Day. Don’t get me wrong – I absolutely adore my classmates, our instructor, the campus director…everything about The Iron Yard, really – but it is hard to get a third of the way into this and still feel like I know basically nothing. Every day I feel like I am repeatedly throwing myself against a brick wall, with naught to show for it but a mutilated sense of self-worth.
(Pretty dramatic, right? I know.)
I’m trying to trust that this isn’t reality. That my brain is absorbing the things it needs to, and it’s all going to come together eventually. I asked a local Iron Yard alumni if she ever stopped feeling like she didn’t know anything, and she said it was in week 11 of 12. 7 weeks away. If you find yourself experiencing this during coding bootcamp, you’ll want to know how to hang on until then. Here’s what’s working for me so far.
Trust your instructor. So many times I’ve felt behind and didn’t want to do the morning exercises from our instructor; I’d want to read up on things to fill in the holes in my learning. But two days later, I would find myself relying on what I had learned during the morning exercises. Even when it’s frustrating, go with it!
Look back over your notes from previous weeks of class. Do you need those notes anymore? No, because you know that stuff by heart now. Tell yourself that in the future you won’t need the notes you’re relying on today. You will make progress!
Immerse yourself! You might as well, right? Read a JS book on the train, listen to a JS podcast on the walk, read JS blog posts in the morning with your coffee. Right before I go to bed, I like to give my brain one last concept to play with while I’m sleeping. The JS dreams are getting exhausting, it’s true – but if it helps me learn, I’m willing to deal with it.
It is so much info. Your brain is processing it whether you realize it or not. Hang in there. You can do it!
This won’t be a ‘thoughts from week 3 of bootcamp’ post, because I have no thoughts left in my head.
I really can’t expect anything else of my brain right now with all that’s being thrown at it. The first two weeks of bootcamp were pretty chill compared to the acceleration that’s happening now, and I know our instructor is still holding back. How do people doing this without a support network survive? I’m trying to imagine not having Deezus doing the grocery shopping, cooking, cleaning, laundry, and offspring-wrangling while I’m in bootcamp, and I can’t even. I did all that stuff myself while in college and working full-time, which was incredibly difficult – and this is waaaaay harder than college! If you are a bootcamp grad who made it through without any help, @ me, because I need you to teach me things!
They warn you to be okay with being uncomfortable. You read a hundred blog posts that say the same. YOU RETWEET QUOTES ABOUT IT. You think to yourself, “It’s part of why I’m doing this, because I was too comfortable in my previous life – I was getting too stagnant.” But no…you have no idea.
No idea what it will be like to go from having every answer you need, from being queen of your domain, from feeling good about yourself because in general you’re doing shit right, to experiencing day after day of failure, to being thrown so off-balance by the paradigm shift that it even starts affecting the rightness of stuff you do in your home life, to feeling afraid to do anything at all because recent experience has taught you the probability of getting it right is NOT GOOD.
And you thought you had this discomfort thing down because hey, you’d already survived letting down the ones who count on you by quitting your cushy job; and hey, you’d already gone against everything you believed about money in order to take a giant risk with basically your entire savings account; and hey, you’d already spent countless hours over the last 16 weeks alone, with yourself, dealing with the crazy beasts inside your head. But no…you had no idea.
No idea that this discomfort would tear you down, but it doesn’t build you back up, no – it leaves you to fend for yourself, leaves you to sift through the rubble looking for the tiniest speck of ANYTHING you can call a victory. Last week you were aware that you had strengths and weaknesses. This week you only have weaknesses and a keen desperation to not feel like a fool. So you search, and you search, and eventually your brain comes up with:
Weakness: Teaching others. Speck of victory: Within that inability to guide/teach someone else, there lies a window for them to find their own way. And I do have the ability to support people as they discover their own best way of doing things, and encourage them, and help them feel safe making mistakes.
Weakness: Basically terrified of meetups. Speck of victory: I still make myself go.
And your brain has to be satisfied with these three itty bitty victories it found, because you now have 5 hours to sleep before getting up and throwing yourself at failure again. And you’re not quite sure if the rest of your life will be this way, but it’s the decision you made, so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
1) We opened with some Markdown exercises. I can see its usefulness when blogging about things in specific languages. Despair as I think, “Will I ever get to that point?!”
2) Iron Yard students are expected to teach crash courses to the public, and take turns hosting the JS Learners group. This is awesome but terrifying. Who wants to be the teacher/host unable to answer questions, so students feel they wasted their time?
3) We reviewed our weekend projects in class (here is my GitHub page for it) and discussed what makes good visual design. It was actually pretty fascinating, which surprised me. Imagine knowing all the things that the eye expects and then how to make those things happen!
4) The global day of code is coming up and I want to participate, but I’d hate to get partnered with someone who has to carry me and do all the work. I am not a person who rides on others’ coattails and doesn’t contribute!
2) We were given 5 JS problems as homework. I had a rubber duck moment with one – I was venting to my husband about how I couldn’t figure out how to do the Rovarspraket and as I was explaining it, it dawned on me exactly how to do it. Rubber ducking is not limited to tech of course – he responded that earlier that day, as soon as he started explaining a new process to his team, he realized he’d made a mistake and what it was.
2) My poor spouse. Probably any poor significant other of a bootcamp student. He has to deal with me texting him little snippets of code I write, or showing him what I did at the end of the day because I’m so excited. He’s willing to listen even if he doesn’t understand, of course – because he’s the best.
2) We did some more mob programming today. I thought I would dislike being the head navigator but I ended up enjoying myself immensely. I’m surrounded by smart people; when I need input or ideas everyone is ready to help out. I feel super lucky to be in this specific cohort.
1) Presentation day! Turns out presentations aren’t all that bad once I’ve had time for the slightest bit of preparation. Inspired by this blog post by Rob Martin, I presented on collaboration in tech, how mob programming is one of the ways we collaborate, and how we can be better collaborators. My five minutes was up way too soon.
2) For weekend homework we were given a project quite beyond what we’ve learned in class, but that’s okay – our instructor has given us the resources and techniques to find answers to our questions, so I’m still excited to give the assignment a try!
1) They’re not joking when they say it takes energy and time – I’m ready for bed by 730pm. My brain is very happy, though. My brain hasn’t been this happy in a long while actually, and that’s something I require and a major reason I chose to learn how to code.
2) Everyone has their strengths and weaknesses. The person struggling with the command line today may kick your ass at CSS tomorrow; the person flying through git today may not know anything about HTML tomorrow. Help each other whenever you can, knowing that you’ll be the one needing help soon enough.
3) Last week I couldn’t have put together any sort of code while listening to music. Right now I’ve got Talking Heads in my earbuds, the presidential debate on the TV, and I’m cruising through stuff no problem. THE BRAIN IS AMAZING.
4) I already can’t wait to get up in the morning and do it all again. The people in my class are smart, willing, and funny, and I know it’s soon but I feel like they’re going to make it all worth it.
5) My goodness, I am grateful for a supportive husband. He met me for a cocktail after class and is now cooking a delicious dinner while I finish up some homework. And he woke up with me to do this:
Things which may be difficult:
6) Mondays. Class is in downtown SLC and on Mondays Dustin works a block away. He’s a blast to hang out with and we’re surrounded by tons of great bars and food, so I will be sorely tempted to meet him at 5 on Mondays, regardless of homework completion. (Really, it’s a pretty great thing to struggle with.)
7) Being around people for 10 hours a day. Introverts, you feel me.
8) Finding a way to concentrate when surrounded by noise. Today we had some reading to do. I have ADD, which I choose not to medicate. I wanted to put my headphones in with some white noise while reading but was afraid this would be misconstrued as being shut off from my classmates or unwilling to cooperate. I don’t want to alienate my fellow students; I will have to find this balance.
1) More gratitude for Dustin. I came home to Pimm’s Cups and a bacon-covered meatloaf. I mean, seriously!
2) Ugh, could not be more disinterested in a subject than I am in HTML/CSS. I know its importance and I know I’ll have to know it and I can do it but I am secretly praying I won’t have to deal with it constantly.
3) I could take the Trax directly to campus, but instead I’m walking the two miles from the train station through downtown, then back again at the end of the day. SLC has a lovely downtown. So clean. So many friendly people. It’s a good way to work exercise into my day and I’m already worried about what I’ll do when the snow and inversions come.
4) Still love my classmates, but by noon I am drained from being around people and all the auditory stimulation it brings. Today I barely had the energy to walk half a block to grab a sandwich, and I was desperate to find a quiet little green space where I could sit and eat my lunch alone to recharge. Luckily my twitter followers had some great locale suggestions I’ll need to check out. So far, I think this is going to be my biggest struggle. I love the lively discussion during lectures, and helping or being helped by my deskmate, but if I don’t force myself to take those moments to be quiet and alone, I’m not going to make it. At a workplace I imagine it to be easier – surely I can go for a brief walk or hey, even hide in a bathroom stall if worse comes to worse. I am now fully coming to understand the word IMMERSIVE.
1) First day I wanted to flip off my computer. Forget you, CSS and your stupid :first-child, :last-child rules (this got better by the end of the day and I ended up gladly turning to it for the weekend assignment).
2) Gratitude today turns towards my classmates, teacher, and campus director. These people are the bomb.
3) Still exhausted, but not by being around others – just by the material. Two days in a row now I’ve tried to plan running a super short errand after class and just haven’t had it in me to do so.
1) We tried out a version of mob programming today, and while I enjoyed it and could immediately see the benefits, I think it’s tough to do when no head navigator is designated. It becomes easy for some to fly under the radar, or to not feel valid/needed enough to share their ideas.
2) There was a discussion on work-life balance at lunch. I’m of the opinion that as long as employees allow ridiculous working hours to happen, they’ll keep happening. For 15 years I put my career ahead of everything else in my life, and I ended up paying for it dearly. I won’t do it again. I’m determined to always be in a position where I can walk away from a job that demands too much of me and my family.
3) A regional gent presented on Iron Yard career services and gave us some things we can start doing today, including updating our CV, social networking, and finding 10 companies we think we might want to work for. Right now I only know of one company, so looks like I have some work to do.
4) Much-needed easier day at TIY. We are three days in and I’m already a walking zombie and sleeping through alarms. My body hurts from sitting down so much, and my neck is demanding I get to the Apple store and get a stand/keyboard.
1) We have to present every week – eek! Following up on what Shawn spoke about yesterday, I presented on the benefits of social media networking as I’ve experienced them. I hate presenting. I never know what to do with my hands (note to self, next time hold the laptop and have something to project), I struggle to make eye contact, and just generally don’t like having attention on me. I may have been the worst presenter but hey, I survived and that’s part of what this class is for – a safe zone where we can fail (and often fail together). Loved getting to know my classmates even more through their super cool presentations.
2) Got a keyboard, stand, and mouse, and my neck is going to be so happy! Excited about the weekend assignment we were given and am looking forward to plugging in some music to my ears and just going to town.